July 2011
1 post
dale is awesome
June 2011
10 posts
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I miss having someone to talk to when things go wrong. I miss having someone to snuggle up to on cold nights. I miss getting random phone calls just to hear that someone missed me. I miss the fun things we did together. I miss everything.
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I can’t believe it’s been a year today since your passing. I remember it 7:15pm when I got the call, so i’ll be having a beer for you! I can still picture all of the times you came here, when I saw you in hospital and the few times I saw you at grandmas. I hope that today you’ll be watching down on me while I get my tattoo for you, and I hope it makes you proud! I’m...
Can I be honest?
I can’t walk away, I can’t help but look back, can’t move on without you. I look out my window everyday, hoping i’d see your car down the street. Everything I do, reminds me of you. I can’t walk away and let go. Not now, not ever.
There’s something inside me that isn’t willing to let you go. There must be something inside of you, pulling you back.
Madonna - Like a prayer.
You never know how strong you until being strong is the only choice you have!
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-A musician must make music, an artist must paint, a poet must write if he is ultimately to be at peace with himself. What one can be, one must be.
-I’m a great believer in luck, and I find the harder I work, the more luck I have.
-You’ve got to get up every morning with determination if you’re going to go to bed with satisfaction.
-People become really quite remarkable when...
May 2011
3 posts
23052011
On this day, two years ago, Lydia was spending her 3rd day back in hospital for Meningitis. It was the hardest time of my life. It was even worse than her birth because I was told for the second time, she might not ever get out of hospital alive.. She was 6 months old. But now, I have a healthy 29 month old baby girl that fought for her life. She’s the best thing to ever happen to me! She is...
“You live, you learn, you grow.”
You.
Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control.
February 2011
2 posts
Dead end road.
Why do I always end up going round and round in circles? I want to move forward, not take one step forward, and three steps back. But that’s what I feel like I’m doing. I’m sick of feeling like this. Nothing I do is ever enough for you. Why can’t you see what I do for you, and actually not think of yourself for once. Yeah, sleep means more to you than anything, and...
January 2011
1 post
The One.
Why do I find that I’m always thinking of ‘him’? ‘He’ is in everything I do, every single day. I can’t help it, there’s no way to control it. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of ‘him’ and the time we’ve spent together. There are no words I can say to express how I feel about ‘him’. If this...
November 2010
7 posts
Quotesx2.
-Say what you think, not what you think you should say.
-When you judge another, you do not define them, you define yourself.
-Take me as I am or nothing at all.
-The more you dwell on what you don’t want, the more of it you create. The things about yourself or your life that you have always disliked are probably still with you.
-The best way to prepare for life is to begin to live.
I believe.
A birth certificate shows that we were born. A death certificate shows that we died. Pictures show that we lived! Just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other. And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do love each other. We don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change. No matter how good a friend is,...
Because of You.
I will not make the same mistakes that you did. I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery. I will not break the way you did, you fell so hard. I’ve learned the hard way, to never let it get that far! Because of you, I never stray too far from the sidewalk. Because of you, I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt. Because of you, I find it hard to trust not...
Felt my world shake..
Why did you put me through so much pain? Why did you cause me so much heart ache? No one is perfect but was I that much of a disgrace to you that you wanted me to change, purely so you would feel better about yourself? Your family is appauled by your actions. You not even care about your own blood.. You even had the balls to deny her, which was a joke. Everyone knew all along she was yours…....
21-01-2008
As the sun sets beyond the horizon, You’re the only one on my mind. Thinking of the memories we shared, Wondering if I’ll ever see you again. The times we spent together, Were nothing short of amazing. Your kisses always bought a smile to my face. Your hugs were always so warm and inviting. I’m so lucky to know you, And to have you in my life. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you. Yeah I’m...
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Time travels so fast, without realisation.
Tuning into the local radio station.
You turn to see where your life has gone.
Pencil to paper, your memories are drawn.
Upon the waking of a new day.
The turning of a new page.
You realize what you have lost.
And giving up of all cost.
All hope has flown out the door.
While I see you, passed out on the floor.
The turning of a new page, drawn...
October 2010
3 posts
That's what you get.
No sir, well I don’t wanna be the blame, not anymore. It’s your turn to take a seat. We’re settling the final score. And why do we like to hurt so much? I can’t decide! You have made it harder just to go on and why all the possibilities. Well I was wrong. That’s what you get when you let your heart win, woah. I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating. I...
September 2010
1 post
LYDIA!
Your Taste Is My Attention: So I know nothing of your taste and now speak up, lover. It’s in your lips, I found. Come on, just press against me. I finally have your attention, so listen closer, sweetheart. I’ve been trying to tell you, stay awake. And no, no, when we’re safe here. Come back, come back, you stayed always. Stay with me here. Stay with me and watch these cars go by,...
TGI!
“Simply put, if you’re going to claim to be something just for personal benefit or to fit in, see it through the highs and lows. Don’t take all the glory, and then when it comes time to do your part, you are nowhere to be found.”
The Conflict: Let’s put an end to this once and for all. We’ve found strength in numbers. And when your time runs out, what will you...
Quotes.
I pretty much base my life around various quotes I often come across. Here are some which are my favourites.
August 2010
3 posts
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-Being single is getting over the illusion that there is somebody out there to complete you and taking charge of your own life!
So so true. I’m over trying to find the perfect ‘relationship’. I’m so ready to sort my life out, and get things done to make Lydia’s life the best it possibly can be.
Starting….. Tomorrow!
Plans.
We made plans to kiss the sun at night. Hopeless dreamers, hopeless types. Shedding skin you show your beauty scars. Don’t forget me or who you are. You know this don’t feel right. Who knows what we feel? I just met you. I can read your thoughts. What they tell me is what I want. I’ll keep you guessing, keep you wanting more. ‘Cos where we’re going no one knows. You...
I hate the feeling of being lost. You don’t know where you are, you don’t know where to go, there’s no one around you and you don’t know how to get out.
I wish life was easier at times. I love complicated situations, and I love getting to the bottom of everything. But at the moment, it seems like I’ve hit the bottom, and I don’t know which way is up.
July 2010
2 posts
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I suddenly feel a bit better about myself.
I know where I want to go in life, I know what I should do and shouldn’t do with Lydias life. Without Lydias father, we’re both better people and I’d like to keep it that way.
Moving on. Need something new, something fresh. I want to fall in love all over again.
I want what’s best for my daughter!
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I sometimes want life to be like Facebook. Once you delete a person, they’re erased from your life forever.
Sometimes wish it was that easy. But reality tells me that it’s far from it.
June 2010
4 posts
Life passes too quickly.
- 01/05/1961-23/06/2010 - R.I.P Kenneth Donald Graham.
My uncle, always my favourite. You’re in a much better place now. No more pain. Just endless happiness. I love you more than words could say. I wish I got to know you more, to see you more, wish there was something I could have done. The worst thing for me was to see you suffer. It ripped me apart inside and knowing there...
Life as we know it.
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t suppose to let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it’s harder every time. You’ll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You’ll fight with your best friend. You’ll blame a new love for things an old one did. You’ll cry because...
Why?
Why can’t you love me for the way I am? Why can’t you accept the previous choices I’ve made? Why have you given me a list of things I need to change about myself to suit you? Why do I have to look ‘normal’ before ‘we’ become a proper family?
I’m quite content about everything in my life. My personal appearance, my feelings, my decisions. Why do you...
Waiting.
You were there when things got tough. You were there when he wasn’t. You were there when it all went wrong. You were just there. Now you’re gone. I miss you more than words can say. I wish you were with me, everyday. I’d give back anything to have you with me just one more time. One more kiss, one more hug.
May 2010
3 posts
Struggle.
Why do people have to suffer? It’s the worst thing ever. Until you die a slow, painful death, you’ll never know what real suffering feels like! The hardest part of all is knowing you’re going to die, yet never giving up hope, never giving in, never letting go. Life sucks right now. I just want all your pain to go away, I want to see you happy again. I know it is never going to...
Moments in time.
Time is the most powerful weapon that nature preserves, a year divided into 12 months, 12 months into 365 days, 365 days into 52 weeks, each week containing 7 days and each day 24 hours, each hour divided into minutes, minutes into seconds and seconds into the thing most precious moments. Life is based on each moment we lived and the greatest experiences we gain through living each moment. Moments...
Easier to run.
It’s easier to run, replacing this pain with something numb. It’s so much easier to go, than face all this pain here all alone. Something has been taken from deep inside of me. A secret I’ve kept locked away, no one can ever see. Wounds so deep they never show, they never go away. Like moving pictures in my head, for years and years they’ve played. If I could change I...
April 2010
3 posts
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All I want to hear is a simple-I love you, I care about you, I miss you, I want you.
Nope, nothing….
lifelovelost.
I wish I could turn back time for you. Give you more time to heal, more time for treatment and well earned rest. No one ever deserves to go through what you’re going through right now. It’s the utimate worst way to die. Watching the days and weeks pass you by without even really realising. It hurts me so much seeing you the way you are. Vague, in your own world, not wanting to know...